It's been a while. Wow.
I probably do have a lot to say, but I think I am just going to address my feelings about deviantART as of late.
I feel like I'm not as connected to my watchers/fans/friends on here anymore.
Like, when I was obsessed with wrestling and I drew tons ( TONS ) of fanart, I got a lot of watchers at that point because that sort of thing was popular. And I made ( and lost ) a lot of great friends on this journey. Those who are with me, I still love and appreciate and support them. They know who they are.
This is going to sound like I'm just trying to complain that I never get comments or that I am not as popular. That's not the real case. I really don't feel like I am getting the same support, I wanna say.. And, I'm not going to just draw what people want to see. I'm not going to do that. I draw because it's the only thing I have to be passionate about anymore and I want to share that. And if I improve, I like the feeling of support that comes from people who actually notice..
I got so much support/comments/adoration when I used to draw wrestling and make WWE commentaries on my journals. And, those were fun and I did those because I wanted to. And a lot of my wrestling pals actually supported my original art as well. ( Thank you very much for that. ) And I love that people can support my original art. I wanted to get people to do that for more than Just Listen, but if you only like or know Just Listen, that's great too. It means a lot. And, to bring up that question.. I have not given up Just Listen. I have to be in the mood to work on comics.. Is the thing. And those of you who are artists but not JUST comic artists will understand where I am coming from. I will get sudden motivation to work on my comic in spurts and when I do have that, I just put on my music and I draw and draw tons of pages and then I cry because I have to outline and color those later. XD
But, no. I have not given up on Just Listen. I love it and I am loving how it's going with my re-do, it's just going to take a lot of work to go back to what was it--50 pages, I think?
Now, to bring up my art as of this shitty, shitty year... This year has been a roller coaster of emotions. This whole year.. And, when shit hits the fan and I feel down or I feel just completely awful.. I can't work on anything. And I try sometimes. But, my art.. It suffers. I mean, I can vent. I can do that, but at a certain point, I just can't do anything. And I have so many sketches that won't be finished. ( That's what art dumps are for, I suppose? xD )
But, yeah.. This fucking year... Is all I have to say. And, I hope I can get my shit together and keep pushing through.. I haven't even gotten a commission in so long, it's just ridiculous.
Anyways, yeah.. I just am not feeling it on here anymore. I'm not saying I'm leaving. I'm just not going to be making any or probably participating in any contests or anything.. And, I will check my deviations or post art and then just go. Like, I don't linger on dA anymore, I don't feel the same contentment I used to with this site. It's to the point where people on Facebook are more supportive of myself and my art. And, that is pretty sad to me, because so many people "hate" Facebook and shit..
Anyways, I hope you're all doing well. Or as well as can be.
And any of my watchers who play League of Legends.. If you wanna add me, let me know! We can play it up!